डरने लगे….

यादों के झरोखों में जाने से डरने लगे,

हम खुद अपनी परछाइयों से डरने लगे,

ख्वाब देखा जो कल-तोड़ दिया वक्त ने,

हम बेबस हो वक्त की घातों से डरने लगे,

तुमने ला के यूं छोड़ा हमें रस्ते पर,

हम मंज़िल की राहों से ही डरने लगे,

दर्द उठता है दिल में तेरे ख्याल भर से,

शायद यूं हम तेरे अज़ीज़ ख्यालों से डरने लगे…

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Translation
Since memories of past haunt me,

I now get scared from my own shadows,

Time shattered away all my dreams

I now get scared from the pace of time,

The way you abandoned me in midway,

I now get scared from every path I walk on,

My heart aches whenever I remember you,

May that’s why I now get scared remembering you…..

ज़िंदगी

जज़बातों से भरी हुई

Jazbaaton se bhari hu,

तुझ बिन वीरान है जिंदगी….

Tujh bin viraan hai zindagi….
आज यादों का झोंका यूँ चला

Aj yaadon ka jhonka yun chala

कि रुख से पर्दा उड़ गया

Ki rukh se parda udd gya

आँखों में आँसू ना सही

Aankhon mey aansu na sahi

लेकिन कुछ परेशान है ज़िंदगी….

Lekin kuch pareshaan hai zindagi….
दिल के हाथों मजबूर थे कभी

Dil k hathon majbur the kabhi

आज हालातों ने मजबूर कर दिया

Aj halaaton ne majbur kar dia

सफर है एक अंजानी मन्ज़िल का

Safar hai ek anjaani manzil ka

और सामान है ज़िंदगी…..

Aur samaan hai zindagi….
कहते हैं वक्त बदल देता है

Kehte hain waqt badal deta hai 

अपने साथ ज़माने को

Apne sath zamaane ko

आज खुद को आईने में देख

Aaj khud ko aaine mey dekh

 जाने क्यों हैरान है ज़िंदगी…

Jaane kyun hairaan hai zindagi…

दिल का दर्द

इस पत्थर दिल ज़माने से

दिल का दर्द छुपा रखा है

आज फिर तुम याद आ गए

वर्ना अर्से से तुम्हें भुला रखा है

क्या पता था इस मोड़ पर हम तन्हा रह जाएंगे

वर्ना सामां हमने भी सफर का बांध रखा है

हैं बहुत हमें भी दिलासा देने वाले

तुमने किसलिए हमसे रिश्ता ये बना रखा है

दिल में लाख चुभे थे कांटे किसी ज़माने में

शायद तभी इसे आज दामन से छुपा रखा है

है दस्तूर ज़माने का रिश्तों को दफ़न कर देना 

मैंने भी कब्र को अपनी बुनियाद बना रखा है…


Translation:

From this hard hearted world

I’ve hidden my heart’s deepest pain
You’re being remembered today

Else I’d forgotten you since ages

Who knew I’d be left abandoned like this

 Else I too had packed up for life’s journey

There are many to console me

Then why are you still connected to me

My heart had been hurt badly in the past

Maybe thats why I hide it from the world

It’s a ritual to bury relations in this world

And so I’ve laid my coffin as my foundation…

Be Positive

“Can’t believe it’s time. I’d been waiting for this my whole life” exclaimed Sonu. “You must be crazy, do you by any chance have any idea what’s about to happen?” Stuttered  Monu, maybe because of fear. Both Sonu and Monu hung together to one of the branches of Maple tree that stood tall in my backyard overlooking through my bedroom window from past so many years.

It was cool breezy Sunday morning. I’d been lazing around in my room when I heard the their conversation. Sonu and Monu both were leaves of same age and colour. They’d sprouted together and grew up facing same weather conditions all through their life span. It was beginning of fall, the time they had to bid adieu to the world, the place they had stayed like…..Forever.

Hearing them talk, got the lost me back from my thoughts. I laid on my bed, fully concentrating on their words. I could hear Monu sobbing. Obviously, change not just brings in fear with itself but also the pain of departure. It’s hard to bid goodbye to something that have always been around you. Monu’s emotional dilemma was understandable. “How can this happen to me, why is it happening at all? I’m just too scared to this uncertainty. Why God……why ME??? Falling down and hitting the ground would hurt me. The new whereabouts, new atmosphere will be hard and it will be really difficult to survive”.

On the contrary, Sonu sounded excited and was looking forward to this change as an adventurous roller coaster ride. I heard him explaining his emotions. “C’on Monu, we’ve been hanging here for such a long time, imagine how it would be like when we’ll be flying like birds with this wind . It would feel like we too got wings attached for taking a flight. Think how exciting experience it would be to get carried away by the wind like a small baby in the arms of his mother. How it would be like to touch the ground below with our own feet. We have always seen everything from up here by just hanging. I so want to feel the ground below, sit next to those flowers who have been smiling from far off all along.

Suddenly, there were sounds of screaming, one out of terror and one out of excitement. I rushed to the window just to see two beautiful leaves falling down towards the ground. One was heading straight down while the other was twisting and turning around, gliding down as if it was playing with the wind. I could very well differentiate who was Monu and who was Sonu.

This incident taught me one thing about “Attitude”. Under the given situation when the result was same, experience was also all the more same, it was just the change of attitude, that made huge difference. Where Monu had a gloomy, sad and depressive ending, Sonu on the contrary enjoyed every single moment life provided him.

A Positive Attitude not only empowers you to face the difficulties, but helps you to enjoy maximum benefits even from an adverse situation. “Positive Thinking isn’t about expecting the best to happen everytime, but accepting that whatever happens is the best for this moment.”

जैसे…

है आरजू या तो बेपनाह
या ख्वाहिश अधूरी रह गई हो जैसे

थम रही हैं ये सांसें

या फिर वक्त ही थम गया हो जैसे…..

मुझे दस्तूर-ए-जमाने का इल्म नहीं

बंदिशें ताउम्र मुझपर लगी हों जैसे

उड जाऊं बेबाक परिंदे की तरह

अरमानों ने पंख लगा लिए हों जैसे…..

दर्द आंखों में यूं दिखाई नहीं देता

लबोंं पर हसीं सजा रखी हो जैसे

जी लूं हर इक पल को कुछ इस तरह

जिंदगी इसी आलम में गुजर जाएगी जैसे…..

My attempt to be Creative 

Since childhood I always loved keeping myself busy in some or the other thing that was constructive and creative. And while I was away juggling between work and personal life, trying my hand on getting creative again turned out to be quite satisfying.
This is for the first time ever that I tried sketching an eye, and the way it turned out to be is as follows-

This one reminded me of my teenage days, how much I wished to sport wavy locks like these 😍 anyway what can’t be there on my scalp stayed here on my sketchbook 😝

A reflection to my love for Kanha, really wish I could elaborate more on this one but whatever it turned ojt to be, is really dearer to me 

NOTE TO SELF

Dear Me,

Its been quite a time that we’ve been travelling this journey called “Life”. In all these years we learnt a lot, gained experience, matured and overall enjoyed ourselves. There had been tough times to face as well, but since we’re inseparable, we faced it all.
In all these years, I’ve never really worked upon the reason for my existence. My studies, career or anything that I’ve learned so far, never taught me to find my own self, though it did help me to find the various things that existed in the world and the reason why they are so. But it failed to help me understand, “Why I am the way I am.”

Being a person who doesn’t believe in making resolutions ( maybe because we can’t keep it for long) I have never waited for a new year to begin so that I can make a positive change in myself. But today it’s different. As a new calendar has commenced from today, I want to thank you for all the experiences that we’ve shared, no matter whether they were good or bad and at the same time, I want to resolve that from now on “My dear ME” you HAVE to give sometime to yourself. People call it “ME time” and I think its good to reconnect with your inner self. I need to know “Who I really am” and am sure this “Me Time” will surely help me to understand things in a better way.

Plans & Reality

Plans…..our life is full of them….financial plans….future planning…plans for a better job/career…planning for a secured life….plans of holidays…umpteen and endless plans. Many of them do take shape the way we thought they would, many are dumped and many more are born with time. But what happens if all of a sudden all your plans & stuff like that come to a halt. What if in the very next moment you realise you’ve come to an end. It’s like you’re walking on a rope blindfolded, planning and stepping ahead not knowing when the rope would end. A FULLSTOP. The End! All that time we’d spend on planning then seems to be a complete waste of time altogether. At such point we wish we’d live a little more. Lived to work upon our plans….lived to relish.
Recently I came to know about sudden demise of a colleague and friend. We had worked together for sometime and used to catch up with each other now and then, discussing life and plans for future. Plans to go for a holiday…plans to appear for promotion exercise in office & what not. And today when I heard about his sudden demise, I was remembering his words….his PLANS. Wish we knew about our expiry date just the way we check the expiry dates of various products that are purchased from market. In such a scenario plans would have taken a logical place in our lives….because we would then know exactly till which moment of life we have to plan for.
Since we’re not blessed with a known fixed expire date, we need to follow religiously just one thing-“CARPE DIEM“, a Latin phrase that says “Seize the Day“. Enjoy the present and don’t worry about the future, as in it’s a beautiful day, so forget tommorow’s test. Personally, I’d heard this phrase quite often but the demise of a friend actually taught me the real meaning and gave me a good reason to follow. So for me, it’s not about just planning anymore, but to make maximum out of what we have for today. If it’s good, cherish it and if it’s bad, deal with it in best possible manner & learn a lesson from it. But most importantly LIVE IN THE PRESENT, because that’s all we have in our own hands.