NOTE TO SELF

Dear Me,

Its been quite a time that we’ve been travelling this journey called “Life”. In all these years we learnt a lot, gained experience, matured and overall enjoyed ourselves. There had been tough times to face as well, but since we’re inseparable, we faced it all.
In all these years, I’ve never really worked upon the reason for my existence. My studies, career or anything that I’ve learned so far, never taught me to find my own self, though it did help me to find the various things that existed in the world and the reason why they are so. But it failed to help me understand, “Why I am the way I am.”

Being a person who doesn’t believe in making resolutions ( maybe because we can’t keep it for long) I have never waited for a new year to begin so that I can make a positive change in myself. But today it’s different. As a new calendar has commenced from today, I want to thank you for all the experiences that we’ve shared, no matter whether they were good or bad and at the same time, I want to resolve that from now on “My dear ME” you HAVE to give sometime to yourself. People call it “ME time” and I think its good to reconnect with your inner self. I need to know “Who I really am” and am sure this “Me Time” will surely help me to understand things in a better way.

Plans & Reality

Plans…..our life is full of them….financial plans….future planning…plans for a better job/career…planning for a secured life….plans of holidays…umpteen and endless plans. Many of them do take shape the way we thought they would, many are dumped and many more are born with time. But what happens if all of a sudden all your plans & stuff like that come to a halt. What if in the very next moment you realise you’ve come to an end. It’s like you’re walking on a rope blindfolded, planning and stepping ahead not knowing when the rope would end. A FULLSTOP. The End! All that time we’d spend on planning then seems to be a complete waste of time altogether. At such point we wish we’d live a little more. Lived to work upon our plans….lived to relish.
Recently I came to know about sudden demise of a colleague and friend. We had worked together for sometime and used to catch up with each other now and then, discussing life and plans for future. Plans to go for a holiday…plans to appear for promotion exercise in office & what not. And today when I heard about his sudden demise, I was remembering his words….his PLANS. Wish we knew about our expiry date just the way we check the expiry dates of various products that are purchased from market. In such a scenario plans would have taken a logical place in our lives….because we would then know exactly till which moment of life we have to plan for.
Since we’re not blessed with a known fixed expire date, we need to follow religiously just one thing-“CARPE DIEM“, a Latin phrase that says “Seize the Day“. Enjoy the present and don’t worry about the future, as in it’s a beautiful day, so forget tommorow’s test. Personally, I’d heard this phrase quite often but the demise of a friend actually taught me the real meaning and gave me a good reason to follow. So for me, it’s not about just planning anymore, but to make maximum out of what we have for today. If it’s good, cherish it and if it’s bad, deal with it in best possible manner & learn a lesson from it. But most importantly LIVE IN THE PRESENT, because that’s all we have in our own hands.

Life…

Life is but a mystery

…mystery leads to suspicion

Suspicion causes queries

Queries land up in findings

Findings makes results

Results end up in failure

Failure gives you strength

Strength leads to success

Success promises rewards

Rewards bring along friends

Friends share a bond

The bond provides you love

Love showers happiness

Your happiness makes other greensick

Greensickness being a poison buries them

…and buried souls never rise

They die as you live

This way….the mystery goes on…

The LIFE goes on….

Gesture…

In today’s time, when cut throat competition is a common scenario, where earning easy money has become latest trend amongst the youth, I was taken aback by a simple gesture of one stranger who forced me to think whether there are angels living in this real world.

One fine day, as a routine, I had hired an auto from my place to work like any other day. On my way, one of my co-passenger (a lady) got off at government hospital and handed over a fifty rupee note to the driver and rushed into the hospital. Her haste movements and facial expressions revealed that she was worried and was so much occupied in her worries as she didn’t realize that she was meant to pay mere Rs.10/- for the journey she had travelled so far. The moment she left, the driver realised that he was been paid five times more than what he’d charge. In normal course, you’d expect the driver to take advantage of the mistake & drive away quickly even before the situation is analysed. But to my surprise, the auto wala bhaiya grabbed the change from his change box & rushed through the hospital gates, trying to locate the lady. It took his 5-10mins to actually find her and hand her with the change.

This gesture quite impressed me. I couldn’t stop myself & asked him why he went ahead to return the amount whereas he could have easily kept it and probably didn’t have to take another round or carry 4 passengers  to earn this much amount. To this, his simple reply touched my heart, “Madam ji hum gareeb zarur hain lekin chor nhi….kisi k haq ka paisa maar k chain ki neend kahan so payenge. Kal ko upar wala jab hisaab karega to apni kamayi izzat hi kaam ayegi na ki chori ya dhokhe we kamaayi hui daulat.”

Wish many of us could adopt such thought & learn to be true to humanity. Wish we could follow rules not because the cops would bother us otherwise. Wish people could donate for good cause & not for impressing others or to show off their good deeds. If at all, each one of us could act upon with a positive frame of mind, for our own good, this world would then be a lot better place to live in.