Self realisation

Learnt an important lesson lately, “Never let anyone talk down to you, no matter how close the relation remains.” There’s a need to draw a line beyond which NOBODY on earth can hurt you or make you feel low. So I too drew a line, putting a step out of the situation, badly wanting to break free from just being taken for granted.

People who blame others for treating them as door mats, sorry to say, but are actually the reason to be so. It takes courage to take just one step- The First Step. Relationship is a two way road, and if the traffic of one side is blocked, the adjoining road gets overcrowded. Similarly, there has to be a balance in every relation. Not that I mean to be rude or rigid but there has to be a limit of everything.

आज भी…

शहर के उस पुराने मकान में

कोई रहता है आज भी

उस फकीर के मकबरे में

दीया जलता है आज भी

यूँ तो जमाना बदलता रहता है

कल भी बदला था

वो बदलता है आज भी

इस जमाने की तूफानी हवाओं का सामना

मेरी जिंदगी का दीया करता है आज भी

आज भी परवाने शम्मा की राह पर

जलकर मर जाते हैं

हर गली हर शहर से

मोहब्बत का जनाजा निकलता है आज भी

आज भी रात ख्वाब दिखाकर

तोड दिया करती है

इस अंधी दुनिया को रोशनी देने

सूरज निकलता है आज भी

आज भी किसी की नजर

तकती है एक बेजान से रस्ते को

किसी के दिल से सर्द आह

निकलती है आज भी

शहर के उस पुराने मकान में

कोई रहता है आज भी….|

रात भर!

 

सितारों भरी रात और समां कुछ वीराना था

मेरी मय्यत पर वो दीए जलाते रहे रात भर,

उनकी खामोश निगाहें कुछ नम सी थीं,

हम भी रोते रहे और वो रुलाते रहे रात भर,

जुदाई का असर कुछ यू़ं हुआ हमारे ऊपर

हम आए नहीं और वो बुलाते रहे रात भर,

खुदा गवाह था हमारी वफा-ए-मोहब्बत का शायद

अपनी वफाओं का सिला मांग, हम भी उन्हें सताते रहे रात भर

उनकी आखों में इक टूटा ख्वाब झलकता है आज

हम उन्हें नए ख्वाब दिखाते रहे रात भर,

रात भर हम तारों से भरे आसमां को तकते रहे,

वो हमें और हम उन्हें जगाते रहे रात भर !

NOTE TO SELF

Dear Me,

Its been quite a time that we’ve been travelling this journey called “Life”. In all these years we learnt a lot, gained experience, matured and overall enjoyed ourselves. There had been tough times to face as well, but since we’re inseparable, we faced it all.
In all these years, I’ve never really worked upon the reason for my existence. My studies, career or anything that I’ve learned so far, never taught me to find my own self, though it did help me to find the various things that existed in the world and the reason why they are so. But it failed to help me understand, “Why I am the way I am.”

Being a person who doesn’t believe in making resolutions ( maybe because we can’t keep it for long) I have never waited for a new year to begin so that I can make a positive change in myself. But today it’s different. As a new calendar has commenced from today, I want to thank you for all the experiences that we’ve shared, no matter whether they were good or bad and at the same time, I want to resolve that from now on “My dear ME” you HAVE to give sometime to yourself. People call it “ME time” and I think its good to reconnect with your inner self. I need to know “Who I really am” and am sure this “Me Time” will surely help me to understand things in a better way.

Plans & Reality

Plans…..our life is full of them….financial plans….future planning…plans for a better job/career…planning for a secured life….plans of holidays…umpteen and endless plans. Many of them do take shape the way we thought they would, many are dumped and many more are born with time. But what happens if all of a sudden all your plans & stuff like that come to a halt. What if in the very next moment you realise you’ve come to an end. It’s like you’re walking on a rope blindfolded, planning and stepping ahead not knowing when the rope would end. A FULLSTOP. The End! All that time we’d spend on planning then seems to be a complete waste of time altogether. At such point we wish we’d live a little more. Lived to work upon our plans….lived to relish.
Recently I came to know about sudden demise of a colleague and friend. We had worked together for sometime and used to catch up with each other now and then, discussing life and plans for future. Plans to go for a holiday…plans to appear for promotion exercise in office & what not. And today when I heard about his sudden demise, I was remembering his words….his PLANS. Wish we knew about our expiry date just the way we check the expiry dates of various products that are purchased from market. In such a scenario plans would have taken a logical place in our lives….because we would then know exactly till which moment of life we have to plan for.
Since we’re not blessed with a known fixed expire date, we need to follow religiously just one thing-“CARPE DIEM“, a Latin phrase that says “Seize the Day“. Enjoy the present and don’t worry about the future, as in it’s a beautiful day, so forget tommorow’s test. Personally, I’d heard this phrase quite often but the demise of a friend actually taught me the real meaning and gave me a good reason to follow. So for me, it’s not about just planning anymore, but to make maximum out of what we have for today. If it’s good, cherish it and if it’s bad, deal with it in best possible manner & learn a lesson from it. But most importantly LIVE IN THE PRESENT, because that’s all we have in our own hands.

A Tale over Tea

This post is in response to  Tea tale

On an average, in every Indian family, drinking tea first thing in the morning is more of a common ritual than anything else. There is a huge variety of flavors ranging from Masala tea to cardamom tea, or may be health benefits from ginger tea to ajwain/methi, you name it and you have it. If you’re feeling sleepy-you have tea, if you’re exhausted-you have tea, feeling bored-you have while reading a book or watching television, or if you have guests/company-you prepare tea for all to enjoy the time and tea together. Such is a vital role that Tea has in our our day to day lives. But for a “single” me, tea played more important role i.e of matchmaking. Little did I know that I’d find my life partner chatting over those little cup of tea.

Sandeep was a decent,mature and soft spoken kind of guy, when he started to work in our office for launch of a new insurance product. Targets were allotted to each staff members and Sandeep was responsible to arrange comprehensive data and report it to boss. As a trend, staff members had to first buy the insurance product mandatorily so that the initial branch target is achieved. One evening when boss asked Sandeep to list the staff members who didn’t apply for the product yet, he named me at the top of the list……and then the World War III began from my end. Hatred,resentment…. You name any negative emotion and I had it for Mr.Sandeep.I always avoided communicating with him, until one fine day the ice broke, and it broke for good.

There was a small tea stall at the corner of block where our branch was located. As a routine, I always used to stop by for a cup of “Adrak wali chai”(ginger tea) before heading to home. For me it usually used to be an unwinding moment of the day. But from past few days I’d been uncomfortable since I’d find Sandeep sitting near the tea stall and enjoying his cup of tea.

“Do you find any horns over my head ma’am?” One day Sandeep spoke abruptly. “I don’t know because devils don’t reveal theirs so often” was my quick response. “So, what makes you  believe that I’m a Devil? I don’t remember of doing any harm to you at all……”came a soft tone from him and when I looked at him in his eyes, they seemed to be complaining and hurt all at the same time. “There are many instances in life when you have to act upon something even if you don’t agree/like the whole idea. Trust me, I had no intention of defaming you at all. In fact when your boss created the whole scene in front of everyone that day, I myself felt like shouting back at him. I’ve been noticing you from the day one, I stepped into the branch and quite appreciate the way you carry yourself around but at the same time I feel sorry for whatever happened and can’t find a way to make upon the things that went wrong” That day I left, but my heart remained restless. Rudeness is something that didn’t suit me at all. I realised that all he did was a job allocated to him, not much of his fault as such.

Next day, I sought apology from Sandeep for my rude behaviour and since that day, the tea stall became our favorite adda to hangout after office hours. We chatted and chatted, discussed our heart out on various issues both professional and personal, when one fine day the much sought question popped up to which I profoundly said a big YES….after which our parents met over a cup of tea(yet again) and things were formally decided.

That’s my tale….which I shared with you all while having my favorite steaming hot ginger tea and am sure you too must be having yours while reading this. CHEERS!!!

Open Letter to a Friend

Moon

In response to the Prompt word challenge -“Moon”, I take the honor to put up an open letter to an old friend of mine.

Dear Mr.Moon,

 I know for you I must be one amongst the zillion of souls who look up to you, but for me you’ve always been the first and oldest companion I’ve had since birth. As a child, most of my fairy tales revolved around you. I remember gazing at you from my bedroom’s window every night and talking to you within my own thoughts. The talks used to continue till the time I used to  doze off watching you every night.

When I grew up, my world started getting more complex. Emotions, all sort of them, I started experiencing all of them and who would know that better than you. I shared my dilemma, my achievements, my tears and laughter with you. You were the one who accompanied me in the world of fantasies where love existed. For me you became the messenger to convey my feelings to my sweetheart.

Years later, childhood again turned up between you and me. This time, those tiny eyes gazing at you before they doze off to sleep are not mine. But am glad, that you’d remain a permanent companion for my sweet little baby, just like the way you’ve always been for me. Thank you. 😘

Life…

Life is but a mystery

…mystery leads to suspicion

Suspicion causes queries

Queries land up in findings

Findings makes results

Results end up in failure

Failure gives you strength

Strength leads to success

Success promises rewards

Rewards bring along friends

Friends share a bond

The bond provides you love

Love showers happiness

Your happiness makes other greensick

Greensickness being a poison buries them

…and buried souls never rise

They die as you live

This way….the mystery goes on…

The LIFE goes on….

I don’t believe you dear Friendship Day

I don’t exactly remember when i first heard about this particular day called, “Friendship Day” but I do remember my first and instant reaction to it, ” Dedicating 24hrs to friendship, is it really enough?” People whom I call my friends (I mean the actual ones and not for the sake of categorisation), definitely deserve more than mere few hours in a year. Yup, I value friendship and there’s no doubt on that part. Those who know me closely would vouch for my loyalty and support. I might not physically be there by their side every time, but I try my level best to comfort them, guide them in best possible manner and in case the situation is beyond control, I try to help them to see the whole scenario with a positive frame of mind. In return I have a bunch of people whom I can trust with closed eyes. 


I’m truly blessed and am lucky as far as the question of having good friends is concerned. There are many whom I’ve not met even once, but am having a great bonding with them. There are some who walked with me for a few miles in my journey of life and then we parted ways but are in touch with each other off and on, one of them is a friend of the era I started my school life with, i.e. my nursery classmate. There are few I got acquainted initially as colleagues, but later found great friends in them. “I’m blessed.”



The other day, I was having a very restless time, my mind full of thoughts and I was completely in a state of confusion, it was already past midnight. I simply sat down and started scrolling my phone, saw my closest friend’s name in my chatlist and just dropped a “Hi” to her. To my surprise, the spontaneous and of course the sweetest thing she did was to give me a call in very next second asking me what’s bothering me that kept me awake at that hour. We chatted for an hour and she was all ears to me. That’s what friends are……and that’s what friendship is all about. That particular one hour was my friendship hour and I’m ready to spend my whole life that way. I take the honor to grab a chance and convey my gratitude to all those who touched my heart and left their mark for me to cherish the time spent together. May God bless you all and may we remain friends for years and years to come. Thank you Lord for blessing me with the company of such lovely souls who support me when I need them the most, who share with me their laughter,their sorrows, their emotions….. Ummm….their pocket money/pay check (Winkie wink).
So here’s me wishing not just a day…..not just a week….or month….or year…..but a whole lifetime to you my dear friend 😘